Lord, I'm lost. I am desperately looking for support from someone who knows what it is like to be disappointed by someone you love dearly. To be let down on just about every front. I don't know what to do, and I'm just so sad right now. I haven't felt this way in a long time, but I just cannot bring myself to happiness. I need you to help guide me there. I've been stagnent and missing in my faith and my walk. The guilt keeps piling on. I need help to clear this fog. I need direction and love. I can't see the overall plan you have for me, Lord, and it frightens me. I've had too many excuses, too many obstacles. It's nothing compared to other's circumstances, but becoming a single parent in a two parent household has brought me to my knees. Perhaps that is what this challenge is to be. To remind me to submit. But you have never seemed passive aggressive, Lord, and I'm not sure why the start of now is in order. Why this sudden revelation that I'm all alone in this? Why the slow segregation of the two of us? Where did we go? How do I find my way back to both my faith and my husband? How can I bring us both to the Light again? I have so many questions, and such an aching void. Lord, please heal me. Please help me. I'm seeking you with my whole heart. Amen.