Thursday, July 30, 2009
Running: Week 4 C25k Musings
I'm now in week four of the Couch to 5k Challenge. I'm also participating in a 1/2 Marathon Class, of which, I'll be knocking out my first half in October with the Marine Corps Half Marathon and 5k. I ran the 5k back in 2007, and have been looking forward to the half marathon since then.
Some musings about some of my latest runs:
"The moon is in a perfect crescent in a darker-than-dusk sky. I wouldn't notice this if I were inside, or doing anything else, really, but running."
"When it rains/is raining, the white noise from the cars going by is much louder. Conversely, when you're on the back roads in the neighborhoods, it makes it eerily quieter."
"The frogs make beautiful music to accompany my ipod. Try not to run over and squish any of them."
"I pass by your window and sometimes long to be sitting and watching tv, too. But here. Pounding the pavement. Panting while turning in the mileage. Here is where I belong."
"There is a certain solace to be found in running. It's you and the road and not much else."
Posted at 09:16 pm by Candy-Apple
Monday, June 15, 2009
I finally made it to week 2 on Couch to 5k! The heat this morning was brutal as Gav and I set out to make our rounds. It was 90 seconds on and 2 minutes off today. It took a lot to get me out of the house today; mainly telling myself that I didn't want to repeat W1 again. I was so sick of starting over. Tired of putting myself back to feeling sorry for myself and giving myself one more excuse. I'm just sick of it. So I just went and gumptioned myself up and did it.
The music is better this week, and instead of 8 rounds, there were only 6. Less running over all, though there were slightly longer stretches of it. During the final two, it took every ounce of mental butt kicking to get it in gear and keep going. The heat was brow beating me today, and staying in the constant sun takes a lot out of me. But I sucked it up, made it through all six turns and didn't give up. I just had to keep telling myself "you're not going to die, now pick it up!"
It'll get easier. It does, every week. No matter how hard Mondays seem to be, Wednesday, then Friday, it always gets a little easier. And before I know it, I'll be crossing finish lines again.
Posted at 09:33 pm by Candy-Apple
Monday, June 08, 2009
I know what I want to achieve, and yet, I'm having a hard time mustering up the motivation to get there. Sometimes, my mind's eye will play back all that I used to be, and my body has yet to catch on to the fact that I'm not that anymore. I'm different. I'm doing it, but it sometimes seems like there's no heart behind it. I am more or less going through all the motions of getting my fitness back; which, yes, will yield results in the end, but when there's no heart there... the hunger just isn't there. The feeling of satisfaction isn't as sweet.
I went for a run this morning. It went as excellent as it should have. I even squeezed in an extra burst at the very end, which made me happy to see that I could do it. It's slowly coming back. I guess when I was 180, progress was easily marked. When I was losing five pounds a week, and seeing significant progress in my clothing sizes, it was easy to get super excited about it. Right now, it's just something I know I must do, and so I do it. I know my heart will get back in it when I go over that first finish line for the season. That vigorous hunger will be back, and I so cannot wait for it. But right now, fitness is on my to do list, and I check it off as I do with most other things in my routine. I suppose just having Gavin in my life, and having something so major become so much more important than myself, it takes the focus away from my running and makes it seem like background static.
The volume goes up. The sweat builds. The breathing turns to a pant. The feet hit the ground with heavy thuds. Arms become muscular as they push the wheels in front of them. She wonders why she is doing this... how come she feels satisfied with how she is looking, but yet, knows that she needs to continue to beat herself into shape. For who? For what? For the simple reason that she can. She can, and she will.
I Can, and I Will [ICIW].
It'll come back. The more check marks I make, the first race I complete, the first real challenge that I overcome (like, running in miles instead of minutes), it'll be worth it, and it'll be back. This will become meditative and fun again. Right now, it's work. It will always be work. But it won't be slavish work.
Posted at 09:11 pm by Candy-Apple
Monday, June 01, 2009
Monday: Spaghetti and Meat Sauce
Tuesday: Cranberry Pork Chops with Cornbread Stuffing
Wednesday: Chicken Curry with Spinach
Thursday: Irish Stew with Biscuits
Friday: French Dip Sandwiches with Au Jus
Posted at 03:54 pm by Candy-Apple
Here we are again! It's time to get my groove on and drop some poundage. I'm going to get everything back in gear and start running again. I've got a race calendar:
VESTCOR BRIDGES 5K (NIGHT RACE)
AUGUST 7 - 8
TOUR DE PAIN (4 MILE BEACH RUN 8/7 P.M., 5K 8/8 A.M., 1 MILE 8/8 P.M.)
SUMMER BEACH RUN 5K (NIGHT RACE)
DISNEY'S EVEREST 5K, OBSTACLE COURSE (NIGHT RACE)
MARINE CORPS 1/2 MARATHON AND 5K
RITA AT THE TOWN CENTER 5K - FAST AND VERY FLAT!
DISNEY RACE FOR TASTE 10K (NOT SURE IF I'LL DO THIS ONE - WANT TO, BUT THERE ARE SO MANY IN OCTOBER)
TOWER OF TERROR 13K
EVERGREEN PUMPKIN RUN 5K AND 10 MILE (GOES THROUGH A CEMETERY!)
NATIVE SUN 10K (A MUST!)
NOVEMBER 26 - THANKSGIVING DAY
OUTBACK DISTANCE CLASSIC (ANOTHER MUST... TRADITION!! RACE EARLY MORNING, PIG OUT MIDDAY)
FESTIVAL OF LIGHTS 5K
DECEMBER 31 - GAVIN'S BIRTHDAY
VYSTAR GATOR BOWL 5K (DOUBT I'LL DO THIS ONE, SEEING HOW IT'S HIS
BIRTHDAY BUT IT'S A MIDDAY RACE AND GOES ON THE PARADE ROUTE DOWNTOWN.
THERESA AND I DID IT YEAR BEFORE LAST.)
These are the races I want to set out and do this year. I'm going to start training tonight to gear up for the races in the fall season. There's a 10k, a 13k and possibly a half marathon in there somewheres. It's ambitious, I know, but I have to set high goals to give me good reasons to stick to it. Doing it for myself never sticks. But if I do it for training, then I'll complete it. I'm 140 pounds right now. I hope this season, I can drop some of those pounds, and put up some of my best numbers ever. I'm going to try and keep track of my weight loss, running progress, motivation, recipes, and just general stuff here. Just like the good ole' days. :-D
Posted at 09:46 am by Candy-Apple